In previous years my first post of the year was either lessons learned or some sort of resolution list. I think it’s safe to say this won’t be either of those things.
If you haven’t noticed, I lost my will to write somewhere in 2012. (My best guess is that it got lost somewhere in July between becoming unemployed and losing track of other goals)
Nonetheless, here I am – writing again. The thing is
it’s I’m different this time.
It’s time for me to make something of myself.
For the past couple of years I’ve been “in transition” and I still am. For those of you who are unaware of what I mean by “in transition“; it’s the point in your life where you’re old enough and mature enough to be an adult and have your own opinions, but you’re not quite settled yet ― you’re still in the process of creating your life and deciding who and what you want to be.
With graduation quickly approaching I’ve realized that the other side of transition is not as far as I thought it was, and whether or not I’m ready for it, it’s time to make decisions.
Needless to say my first reaction to this realization was, “what the hell am I supposed to do now?!” and I felt this way for months…
And then I had a conversation with a friend of mine, and he said something so simple yet so oddly comforting:
“Nobody knows what to do next.”
That’s right. Nobody. Meaning I’m not the only one with an unclear path… Meaning it’s okay to not know exactly what’s going to happen next. The more I thought about it, the better I felt, and the more I realized I’m ready for this.
I now have a plan (somewhat) of what the next 2 years of my life are going to entail. It’s not going to be easy, but it’s definitely going to be an adventure. First up on the list: get through my last term of school – and make the most of it!
“In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.”
― Robert Frost